I wish I was (a flaw exmination)

I wish I was witty

Well writer

I wish I was wise I wish the percentage

of times I'm right  about things

went from 95 to 100

because really, I'm right a lot of the time

but I would like to be right

all of the time

I wish I could sing better

people tell me I can sing

but I wish I could sing the best

I wish belting on a west end stage

came as naturally to me

as mumbling does

I wish I was the best

at everything, really

I wish I could take to people without choking

and I wish I could talk to people in person

also without choking

I wish my feet don't smell so bad

and that I didn't cry in public

as often I do

I wish I didn't get jealous

and I wish I could stop thinking

that the people laughing near me

are laughing about me

I wish I could stop cracking my fingers

not because I want to stop

but because it grosses everyone out.

I wish I was more flexible

in terms of touching my toes

and changing plans

I wish I didn't think about

eating the way I do

I wish I could have slice of pizza as partly without hating myself

I wish I was patient, less stubborn

and brave

I wish I was more interesting

but that might be one of those things where

everyone else thinks I'm interesting

but I don't because i';m me

and I know I spend most of days

reading books in my room

which isn't interesting

I'm not even saying that to be cute and quirky,

I am just genuinely undressed

in my room most of the time

I wish I was actually as mysterious

as everyone who doesn't know me thinks I am

I wish I didn't feel like

I had to be the best at everything

I wish I could give myself the freedom

to make a mistake without thinking about

the mistake for an entire week after the mistake,.

I wish I wasn't so hard on myself

maybe I should stop looking for things

I don't like about me now

 

See friends and readers of this blog. I still write poems.